There are so many thoughts going through my mind. I find that I just want to focus on the positive. I have had some chances to choose otherwise, and I can't do it. I see the blessings, and I want to rejoice in them. This world is so far from perfect, and I am going to look for all the good I can find. When I find horrible things that I have to face, I will do so and look for what God is doing in that imperfection. God has a great sense of humor and justice, and I believe that because of all I've seen in this life. And living with 2 teenagers and almost 2 high schoolers is even more confirmation of that! They are wonderful children, but have adapted so easily to those characteristics that teenagers are known for. (Can anyone say rolling the eyes and sighing??)
What do I see today? How about a list!
- Sunshine and 76 degrees in March in the mid-west...for about the 4th day in a row.
- Lunch with my BFF - thank you God for bringing her to work here!
- Healthy kids who call me when they get home from school, who want to eat dinner at the family table, who help out at home, even though sometimes reluctantly and needing to be reminded. We are blessed.
- Thank you God for a sense of humor because this insanity that is my life can sometimes be overwhelming. Thanks for the good sense to laugh when I recognize something for the insanity that it is....case in point, letter from Jake. To me. After not seeing me for 5 years. Maybe even 6. And he apologizes to me, for what, I'm not sure. And in letters from him to Jack, there is never any apology, only poor me, what you've done to me. Makes me want to scream! But I laugh. The irony is not lost on me!
This is slightly rambling - oh well. That's where I am today.