Monday, April 7, 2014
I think spring is finally coming. Not here, but coming. It's a weird sort of winter we have had, and it makes spring all the more welcome to me! Things are changing - looking at graduation for LT. He went to a dance, and held hands with a girl. I mean seriously - on our couch - in our house - I may have had a small panic attack. I understand this is normal behavior for 18 y-o boys, but my baby?!! My boy?!? No, this is not normal! LOL - God is working on stretching me. I got it - But seriously??? I don't think you understand how my mind was blown. Anyway, that is changing. He has to commit to a college any day, and there's that to look forward to as well.
To the things that stay the same...Jack and his drinking, blame gaming, and childishness. I am trying to extend grace. And sometimes I'm better at that than others. It's just really hard some days, and I let my exasperation show. Believe me, I'm paying for it. But, I also have grace shown to me - a reminder of what is in my control and what is not...a reminder of what I can control and what I can't. So I move on. Changing slowly, but changing with the grace that comes from a God who is bigger than this life and any trial that comes.
God is good, and I was reminded of that too! Had a great time at a retreat where God's love overflowed, and it was amazing to see that in the faces and the lives of the women there.
Take one day at a time, and let God do what is His to do. I have plenty to take care of in my own head.