Tuesday, December 23, 2014

This About Sums it Up

So today, I ran across this post: Don't Roll Into the Holiday 'Till You Read This.  It says EXACTLY what I've needed to hear.  I've been really struggling with the holidays, for years actually, and this year I about went over the edge when Jack spat at me that LT couldn't stay with us for his entire Christmas break from school.  Instead of just talking to me about it, in his typical Passive/Aggressive way, said something vague and then I was supposed to interpret what that meant.  After tiring of his cold shoulder routine, I guess he finally was tired of acting like that too, and decided to talk to me.  Now, I can understand that he doesn't want to have the entire month long period being stressed for everyone, and by everyone, he means him and Abby, but we can have LT here several times, just no more than 3-4 days at a time.
Really?  I try not to be too bitchy about things that go on in the insanity circle that is the alcoholic family dynamic, but this isn't what I wanted my family to look like.  I guess that's why Momastry's post really struck me.  Rarely do our families live up to the shiny sparkly families that are advertised on every station and in every magazine.  We are all a bunch of messy, broken humans trying to get through life.  I accept all of my family and their messiness.  I just wish those messes didn't have to hurt so much.
Praying for peace and joy for your family this Christmas.
Please remember the reason we celebrate - the gift of God in human form - He came to this messy world so we could know a better place.
Blessings to you and yours.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Christmas Time is Here

The holidays are almost here.  This year they look a little different - with LT being away at college, it's just been us and the girls.  He's doing great so far, and I'm ready to see him.  Thanksgiving he was home, but was sick the whole week.  Although, I've been told he can't stay at our house the entire vacation, so I guess he'll go spend some time with the grands, and have a wonderful time of peace and relaxation. That's what I want for him most.  He's done really well in most of his classes, better than in high school.  I'm so proud of him for following his dream even when that means moving quite far away.  I believe in him, and also that God has him right where he should be.  The girls are both having their usual amounts of drama.  At least the house is looking nice, and more like a woman lives in it instead of all camo and wildlife.  Finally an improvement :-)

Jack is still Jack.  Some days are good, some days he has great thought and kindness and shares with me that he can see his blessings.  Other days, the demons get in the way.  I'm thankful for the good times and know the bad ones will pass. 

If you are the praying kind, please keep us in your prayers, that we'd have a good family time together while LT is with us, and that perhaps in some small way Jack will see the good in LT and show him that. 

Thankful for each of you reading even when I only write sporadically.  I want to do more, and will try.  Sometimes it just seems redundant what I have to say, and my hope that each day will get better.  Merry Christmas.