The full moon may be 8 days away, but I swear there are cycles that both the moon and Jack have in common. Thankfully, I have recognized it before, and last night it hit me that I'm making progress in other ways too. I could see that he'd been having a bad work day - really, and with just cause. But for one of the first few times, I didn't immediately jump to the conclusion that I had done something to make him be in a bad mood. He just was. And frankly, when he came home, I was having my own hissy fit over the failed recipe I'd made for dinner (the second time this happened w/the same dish). But even that - I realized my part of being crabby and apologized for what was mine - and nothing more. I feel like that is a huge step for me - a FORWARD step.
I'm so thankful for Al-anon, for the blogs that are out there, the books that are available, and my higher power. God is good, and I'm so glad He gives me another chance.
Still no news from the court date - papers weren't delivered yesterday. I just want it over. I'd prefer it be over in a way that doesn't require ANY court intervention, but we don't always get to choose that.
LT is having problems getting his homework turned in AGAIN. I really believed he had gotten the message - but alas, no. The list of grades is either 100% or 0. Resulting in a D. I'm so pissed off, but it is all out of my control. I can make life electronic free, but I can't make him turn his shit in. GRRRRRR. All other grades are A's, but you know the Ds are in the important classes, not health and choir. I'm trying to keep perspective, but I DON'T understand it. I'm certainly not a boy and I REALLY don't understand him. Oh well, God has this in control too.
Just another day....