Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Good and Blah

We had a lovely time on our night away.  Went to a fabulous steakhouse, shopped a bit, and generally enjoyed the time together.  Of course, there was the usual consumption after, but really - I took what was good and was thankful for it, and was thankful to sleep in the next day.  No one to wake me up. 
Now we're back to the usual routine, for a few days, then the kids start school.  LT & Maggie will be in high school.  It's Abby's last semester of college.  I really don't know how this could be.  I have to say, after the weekend, I really think I'll be okay with an empty nest. LOL.

I've been doing well with my Al-anon and reading the literature, etc. but still, I struggle with HOW can HE not realize that he doesn't have to live this way.  I guess he truly doesn't know any other way.   I've learned a little bit about his extended family, since we never see his dad and step-mom, mom died when he was young.  His grandfather drank EVERY night, in the basement of his home, after work and tried to avoid his grandmother.  HMMMM.  They also had real knock-down, drag-out fights, involving alcohol at holidays, other get-togethers.  This explains a lot.  I have no notion of that kind of thing with my family. We are close-knit, never yell at each other, usually laugh until we cry or pee our pants.  That's more how we roll.  I guess that is what makes me sad.  I miss that.  I miss that my kids don't really know their cousins and great aunts and uncles.  That we can learn so much from them.

Well, this is just a bummer of a post, but that's where I am right now.  Things are good, and will be what they are, but I'm going to keep looking for the best in the world, and those around me, enjoy the sunshine and cooler nights, and read every single chance I get!

Happy S'mores week.  Chocolate will make everything better!


  1. I always wonder how my ex can continue to drink when we watched his father die from it. He truly doesn't see the resemblance. Or he does, but thinks he can control it. Either way, he isn't ready to stop.
    Just got Volume 4 of the Getting Them Sober series since I am in the separation/divorce category. Although we are divorced, I still have to deal with him. I can't say "because of the kids" because we rarely talk about the kids. He usually just calls when he wants something.
    Anyway, I also ordered a new book "Lost in the Shuffle." I'll let you know if I find any great nuggets in it! So glad I found you on this journey that we are on...in case I haven't mentioned it this week.

  2. My next blog post won't be pretty. I'm not quite ready to post it because I'm not completely out of the nightmare just yet. I might email you, if that's okay.