So many things going on around here, and so much is crazy. But really - it's just life. Maggie had a friend who passed away during the first week of school. It's been a crazy emotional roller coaster. Again reminds me of the fragility of life, and the fact that I need to keep what's important in the front of my mind and let the rest go. I can't even imagine what her mom's going through right now.
Had another friend from work who passed away as well, this week. I hate cancer. Can I just say that - HATE it!
On a better note, Abby is back to college, graduating soon *(we hope and pray). It is so funny how we see things differently when we are 21 than when we're 40. Naivete, I believe it is called. I just want to say, 'get used to it honey'. LOL.
Drinking continues. As if that's a suprise. I went to al-anon yesterday and I'm so glad. I can't believe how blessed I am with an amazing support network of caring people. And I don't even know their last names. I was thankful to be able to share some and also hear some reminders. What a blessing from God that program is for me.
We've moved someone for the last 2 weekends, and I'm looking forward to not moving anything this week! For now, I'm thankful our kids are healthy and strong and smart, we have a home and jobs, and it is a gorgeous day.
What you focus on is what you'll find - search for the good and you see good. Seek the bad, and it's easy to find.
I had therapy today. We discussed the fact that although my drama load is quite low (for my life), I'm struggling to quiet my mind. I'm conditioned to bad things happening. I am always on alert. Fight or flight. In these calm weeks, however few and far between, I have to remind myself that I can be content. I am okay. Breathe. So your ending quote is perfectly timed for me. The bad will come. I don't need to seek it when it decides to stay away for a while. :)
ReplyDeleteOh, and I am so sorry for your loss and your daughters loss. I lost a friend when I was 19. It haunted me for such a long time. It's difficult to process it when you are young and looking forward to the rest of your life. I wish you both peace in this tough time.
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