Monday, November 12, 2012
It's the year of Al-Anon
Happy Birthday to me! I've declared this to be the Year of Al-Anon in my life. I'm going to be gentle with myself as I seek to NOT get sucked back in to the insanity that is Jack's alcoholism. He decided to baptize me into the attempt on my birthday, acting like a complete ass, but I don't care. We had a great lunch with my parents, our kids and the weather was lovely. Our children need a parent who is sane and present, and to do that, I'm going to have to start acting like I'm getting better, using my al-anon tools and the support they provide. Whether I feel like it or not! It's been more trying with more health tests, but in the end, I think stress is eating away at my body. I'm not willing to give in, nor be defeated by alcoholism. I know this is going to be difficult. But life is already difficult. I will be okay, just for today. Tears are a part of it, pain is a part of it, but so is joy. And today, I'm choosing joy. If you are the praying type, I'd appreciate your prayers for the kiddos and for me. Even for Jack to see the truth.