I can't believe I haven't written in a month. Time flies when you are having fun, raising teenagers, getting through the day. I've been working 10 hour days to have a 3 day weekend, and I'm thinking not such a good idea. I'm exhausted. Life just keeps moving though.
I'm excited that LT has made some great progress. He got a job, he got very good grades (just one small blip, but totally acceptable), and he went to Al-anon with me. I totally left him alone there, didn't even look at him the whole time, but it was so good to know he was there. Taking it in. Sometimes there aren't many guys there, but there was one that day. He is VERY quiet, but he even spoke then. God was working. Afterwards, when I asked LT if he'd go back, he said he didn't know what he was expecting but it wasn't like that, and he wanted to go again. Can I just hear a Hallelujah!???!!
Most days, Jack is Jack, and I'm working my Al-Anon program and trying to demonstrate to the kids what healthier looks like (mentally anyway - I'm still addicted to Ice Cream). I can always tell when he is extra stressed because he becomes locked into a porn obsession and barely speaks to me. But I go on, because he doesn't control my happiness. I miss the real guy inside of him, but it's all part of the disease. On a good note, he's going to a new doctor and told me when the appointment is(ahead of time). Maybe it's a small step toward a change. God knows and time will tell.
So sad for my Maggie. Their youth group trip has been cancelled due to the fires in Colorado. She is extremely disappointed. Praying for another opportunity for them to still go on any trip. Both the kiddos need to have that experience. Being with other people who love God and aren't afraid to show it.
Abby is home for the summer from college. She is such a dichotomy (I hope that is the right word). She's an adult in years, but not always in her neediness/actions. I guess that is the prime display of growing up as a child of an alcoholic. She is going to church with me, and that is brining her some peace. God is working in all of the kiddos. That is good news to me. I know that there are many who don't believe in God, any god, and that's okay for them. For me, I couldn't make it through the day without a faith.
Praying for all of those in CO fires, FL waters, and midwest drought. It's a tough summer. And a day in the 100s...yikes!
